Jeremy....your words sound eloquent 4 sure. You are fighting a losing battle because what you seek can not be found in another human being....it is a desire to be truly loved and accepted...only God our Creator can do that for us. It is a Divine exchange ....you may love another person on Earth.... but marrying that person will not get you that which, we all are ultimately looking for. Attributing God status to another person is missing the mark. We were created for so much more.